Still I call it magic, when I'm next to you.

Shiver

And it's you I see, but you don't see me.
And it's you I hear, so loud and so clear
I sing it loud and clear.
And I'll always be waiting for you.

So I look in your direction,
But you pay me no attention,
And you know how much I need you,
But you never even see me.


/ You try to fix your relationship. You try to fix them. You try to fix yourself. You try, and you try, and you try, and you try. But sometimes, love is not enough. You don’t understand. You don’t know what to do. How can you fix something on your own? 


I need some scotch.

Fucked things up again. As always.

Nights like this I miss you most.

Going to bed earlier tonight because my brain is fried. I shall wake up by 8 tmrw and get started on work (I hope haha). Can't wait for summer holidays though I know things are gonna change. One academic year has passed too quickly and I kinda wish time would turn back so i can relive the special moments. Wellll, no regrets! Everything that has happened, happened for a reason and made me who I am today.

On a side note, i haven't been blogging long-ass posts because I get distracted too easily and I cannot sit down to type everything down. Meh. Hence all the little snippets of my life/emotions/randomness.

Closing a chapter of my life.

My heart gets a 'sour' and uncomfortable sorta feeling when I picture you and her doing the same things we used to do together :'(

Long train/bus rides are my thing (when I'm not in a rush i.e.). The stillness and the lack of needing to communicate with anyone actually makes me rather content. I'm weird because I like being alone but at the same time, I don't wanna feel lonely. Guess it depends on my mood haha.

fallingforyou.

I thought it stopped hurting, but it still does.

And on this night and in this light
I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you
Maybe you'll change your mind.

x.

You were the unexpected one.

You came as fast as you left.

I really miss you. So much. :'(

“To see the world, things dangerous to come to, to see behind walls, to draw closer, to find each other and to feel. That is the purpose of life.”
 - The Secret Life of Walter Mitty

Most of the time, busying myself in the kitchen takes away the blues. Or napping heh! But today, nothing is helping. I haven't been the best person I can be lately and I have no idea why (or maybe I do, but I just don't wanna admit it) :/
Welllll, I did some reflection over the week and after talking things out with my bff, I've decided to be a nicer, kinder, better, & more loving person overall, and do my best to not take things for granted.

I must remind myself that it's the small things in life that matter x.

"Depression isn’t chicken pox. You don’t beat it once and it’s gone forever. It’s something you live with. And the scariest part is, after a while, you become numb to it. It becomes normal for you and, what you really fear the most, isn’t the suffering inside of you, it’s the stigma inside of others. It’s the shame, it’s the embarrassment, it’s the disapproving look on a friend’s face, it’s the whispers in the hallway that you’re weak. It’s the comments that you’re crazy. That’s what keeps you from getting help. That’s what makes you hold it in and hide it… We live in a world where, if you break your arm, everyone runs over to sign your cast but, if you tell them you’re depressed, everyone runs the other way… We are so accepting of any body part breaking down, except our brains, and that’s ignorance.”

Achievement of the day

I've caught em all 😂