My heart hurts. So much.

Haven't felt like this in a long while.

I have no idea what I'm feeling right now. A mix of everything but mostly sadness.
But maybe deep down, I'm the one worth leaving. I'm not worthy nor good enough.

"Always fall asleep when you’re waking
I count the hours on my hands
Doing the math to the time zone you’re at
Is an unseen part of the plan
But if you’ll be my bluebird returning
Then I’ll be your evergreen."

I don't seem to do anything right to you. I just want to fucking break down and curl up and cry.

I haven't blogged in so longgggg