Feeling utterly inferior right now.

心跳.

I try my best to forget and to be happy.

Happy birthday to me.

Earworm

Life is moving, can't you see
There's no future left for you and me
I was holding and I was searching endlessly
But baby, now there's nothing left that I can do so
So don't be blue
There is another future waiting there for you
I saw it different, I must admit
I caught a glimpse, I'm going after it
They say people never change, but that's bullshit, they do
Yes I'm changing, can't stop it now
And even if I wanted I wouldn't know how
Another version of myself I think I found, at last.

Now you're a stranger,
Now it feels better, it feels better and better
Till you feel nothing at all.

new beginnings

It's the last night in essex and I'm gonna miss this place a lot. Just done with packing 'cept for some last minute items which I will pack in tomorrow. These five months were surreal and it feels like I just flew over in Jan. Well, I'm glad I had some me-time during these few months and have the opportunity to see the world and get over my past troubles. It hasn't been wholly successful but I know I've grown stronger and more independent. I'm kinda afraid to go home because it just means it's back to reality :/ But it has been an epic adventure and I still have a month to go till home so imma treasure the last moments of exchange :)

Got a very bad case of homesickness today. I wanna go back to singapore to my loved ones so badly. Might be just a phase because the guys are headed home so it probably triggered something in me. Plus, I was being the usual fucked up person to someone that I care a lot about. I just feel like there's no one there for me now, and I feel so alone typing this in my room. Spent the day curled up in bed with my laptop on the verge of crying and sporadically breaking out into pathetic sobs. I'm sucha loser. Sigh. A cuddle would do wonders right now. 

Will everything be okay? :'(