"To forget, does not imply a void or a vacuum. It is the 'presence of an absence', the representation of what was once there and no longer is, the representation of something that has been erased, silenced or denied."

Something interesting from my soci reading

You have no idea how much you hurt me.

"The only reason I won't let go of what's making me sad is because it was the only thing that actually made me happy."

I'm jealous of the nights
That I don't spend with you
I'm wondering who you lay next to
Oh, I'm jealous of the night
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love, cause

I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me.

说好的幸福呢?

London calling

Came back from London late last night and I'm already missing that beautiful city. I wish you were here to experience it with me though :(
Soooo... I did quite a bit of shopping and spotted the pair of Nike Air Max Thea I've been eyeing for quite awhile. Since I exceeded my budget for this month, think I will probably get it next month hehe. Really love the sneaker culture here. Everywhere I turn, someone is wearing a Nike haha. Brought the group around the 2/3 days we were there. Saturday was spent mostly shopping and Sunday morning was spent wandering in Camden Lock. I think the highlight of the trip would probably be the extremely long walk in 0 degree weather on Sunday afternoon along the River Thames from Westminster to Tower Hill, and then on to London Liverpool Street, passing by major landmarks like Westminster Abbey, Big Ben, Parliament Houses, London Eye, Shakespeare's Globe Theatre, Tate Modern, St Paul's Cathedral, London Bridge, Borough Market, Tower Bridge, and Tower of London. It was a pretty long walk even though it looked short on the map. & I think I was the only one in the group making Harry Potter references though :/ The guys went back on Sunday night as they had classes on Monday. Hence, Monday was another shopping bout at Oxford Street with the girls (yay), and the evening was spent at Chinatown (where I attempted to find the laopobing store but failed), and around Leicester Square. Caught the film premiere of Mortdecai but didn't have time to wait for Johnny Depp and Gwyneth Paltrow as Estee and I had to catch a train back to Colchester :(

For now, it's back to school and I already have an essay and presentation due in the next 2 weeks darn! Still in the holidaying mood though :( Shall start editing photos too!

Mental note to self: watch Les Mis the next time I'm in London!

Up early on a saturday morning because i think the time difference still affects me a bit. I get really sleepy in the afternoon! Last night's social with the rest of the international students was pretty cool and i got to meet people from all around the world! I'm actually surprised that people do know whr singapore is haha. So the past 2 days have mostly been settling administration and getting our modules. Only settled 3 so far and I have to continue on Monday. But the timetable is looking pretty good with only classes on tues wed and thurs hehe.

The winds are crazy over this weekend and warnings have been issued. Although the temperature is pretty high for this time of the year, the winds are absolutely killing. I think i should add a third layer when i head out laterz. I can hear the wind howling every night and it gets kinda creepy haha

I guess I'm settling down pretty well (though i hate the toilets in my flat) but there isn't a day that i don't think of home and miss you and wish that at least you were here with me. And it sucks real bad that i cannot see my closest friends till 6 months later #needy haha.

Will you still be here when I come home? :'(

1 more night.
I'm not ready :'(

Just for laughs

Virgo (August 23 — September 22) 
Relax, relate, retreat: Your yoga mat, headphones, and Le Creuset French oven could become your BFFs for the first eight months of 2015. Both Jupiter and Saturn are to blame for this celestial sabbatical. Saturn has parked in your domestic fourth house for three years, turning you into a bit of a homebody. You could start saving money to buy an apartment, or move to be closer to your family — even co-sign a lease with a romantic partner. But, don’t put your luggage in storage yet. With Jupiter cruising through your dreamy, un-grounded 12th house until August 11, you’re feeling uncharacteristically nomadic. If there were ever a year to backpack through Europe, or take six months to teach yoga in Ubud, this would be it. Surrender the know-it-all part of your persona. You’ll do major healing this year — on your mind, body, and soul — with the help of some wise guides. You might even release a major grudge — ah, the freedom of forgiveness. But really, Virgo, your New Year doesn’t start until August 11. On that day, lucky, larger-than-life Jupiter bursts into Virgo until September 2016. Your focus is back, and you’re so ready to tackle a fresh chapter of life. Adding to this momentum is a solar eclipse in Virgo on September 13; it will make you an unstoppable force of nature for the six months to follow.

“Sometimes it feels like there are so many things in this world we can't control. Earthquakes, floods, reality shows. But it's important to remember the things that we can. Like forgiveness, second chances, fresh starts. Because the one thing that turns the world from the longing place to a beautiful place is love. Love and any of its forms. Love gives us hope. Hope for the New Year."